Yet another hospital stay and this Little One falls in Love!!!

Hi Everyone,

I'm so very sorry that I havent blogged in ages.... I spent yet another month in hospital! Orginally admitted for a massive head spin that saw me lose the ability to stand, balance, walk or crawl my Baclofen was withheld for a number of days and as a result the severe spasms that I have showed their ugly head as well as something else..... After being transferred to a sydney hospital for investigation it was found that I have a psychological form of epilepsy and go through something known as Pseudoseizues.
This means that if my body gets too stress out or experiences something overwhelming or traumatic it ucan set off a seizure.... Even the stress of an oncoming severe spasm can set one off as was the case on Wednesday when traveling on the train to Penrith for the first time since going back into hospital. EVERYTHING at the moment is VERY overwhelming in the outside world as I was only discharged on monday the 4th April 2011.
I was lucky on Wednesday because Mamma happen to be working! and I could feel muscles in my legs go into spasm and then top it off the seizure kicked in and she took my arms and hands to stop me bashing myself and talked me through it before the seizure took over completely.... Good going Mamma!!! As she got me to look at her and breathe we come up with something to say when I have a seizure "GO AWAY I DON'T NEED YOU LIFE IS GOOD NOW!" and a short time later it was over and I was sitting up smiling and laughing!
While in hospital too I also went through drug withdrawals from not getting my Baclofen and as a result I lost the ability use lots of my muscles and do many things I even had to re-lean to feed myself and had a head tilt to the left... I also could not stop drooling!!!

After two weeks of fighting with my body, learning to lift my head and learning to feed myself again I was able to sit up in my wheelchair again! After all Mamma is right I will do anything for Chocolate!!! I'm now on a lower dose of Baclofen and leaning to walk, balance and stand once I again.

Now to let you all in on something..... This has been developing for some months and just before landing in hospital it happened!!! Sammy has FALLEN IN LOVE!!!! Yes I have a man in my life and he has been by my side through the whole re-building process... Like Mamma pushing me to achieve milestones! His name is Adam we met 13 years ago in my first year of high school and ALWAYS been very close, but through most of our adult life hidden the fact that we have strong feelings for one another for a LONG TIME years in fact!!! We started out hanging a lot late last year and both denied anything happening and then in early january spilt my feelings and left the ball in Adam's court and the beginning of March Adam decided he wanted "us" of course Mamma has seen and is stll seeing this unfold...

Mamma actually met Adam on Wednesday and as he was getting on the train with me she just casually said "Hi Adam" he was just like "Ahh hi" It wasn't till I let out a "Mamma" that he realised who it was and thought "OH SHIT MAMMA!" he had been dreading meeting her because he knows just how close we are and how lovingly protective Mamma is of me and all along I have been telling him that all will be fine... Mamma talked to me a short time later and was "....happy that he looks after you and makes you happy" roughly translated "I approve"

I think Adam won some brownie points later in the day as we caught Mamma's train home again and he presented her with some mini doughnuts after she saw me with with a coffee and asked where hers was. The squeal and laughter was priceless it was great brighten my mamma's day.

And tonight Adam and I are off on a date night EXCITED!!!